I hate being hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have had a yuk day today. Went to Body attack this morning to discover how unfit I really am.
By two PM I was feeling gross. Dehydrated perhaps. Mark thinks that I over did it – but if one little attack class that I didn’t even finish is overdoing it thenI suck!
Then I looked up some Leanness Lifestyle calculations and determined that at my current number of weekly exercise minutes (3 x 40 mins per week as that is my idea of easing into it) I can only eat 1250 cal per day to lose 0.5 kg per week. Then I have days like today where I feel terrible after exercise and have major problems with recovery and it makes me not want to exercise at all. 1250 cal per day is just not enough food for me. If I want to eat more then I have to do more exercise but I dont have time for that right now……..ooohhh it frustrates me so much.
Especially when being hungry is what leads me to a binge session. Perhaps it is just an adjustment period but I hate it.
I hate being hungry. I hate dieting and I hate being fat and self conscious about my naked body. I hate exercise that makes me feel like I am going to throw up 3 – 4 hours later and I hate being physically exhausted from exercising. Why does it have to be so hard to lose weight but so easy to put weight on! At least I am being honest.