I had two days of fabulousness and then I got all tired and muscleachey and have had three days of I can’t be bothered. The tiredness absolutely kills me. That and the pain in my back and neck – although I am doing something about that! I think I am going to go back to doing Tony Ferguson. That satisfied all of my criteria – I lost weight at a noticeable speed, I always had something to eat that was fast and filling and I was never starving hungry! And the only meal that I actually had to put anythought into each day was dinner – and I can cope with that!
It annoys me that I go so well and then I get stressed and I start to get this tightness build up in my chest to the point where I just eat whatever I can put my hands on. The stress of this job kills me! I come away from every conversation reeling with stress over what I said to this doctor or that doctor and I picked up a problem today that one doctor didn’t do something she was meant to do and words were said to the director (about the doctor not doing what she was meant to do) and now I feel like I will never be able to develop a good working relationship with her. some of them just cant see that it is my job to help the patients get the care that they need to get, in a timely fashion – we understand that doctors are only human and can’t remember everything about every patient – we are there to make sure the patients care is seemless and that they get what they need to get on time – preferably without them knowing there was every anything wrong!
I don’t know why I put my heart into these things so much when they case me so much stress.
On another note – I snuk into town for an hour today to try and get some moisturiser samples because I am out of moisturiser and put on my new favourite perfume (Jo Malone – blue agave and cacao) and that made me happy for a short while. I also talked myself out of maccas and had sushi instead.
