I am feeling a bit tired today after working a late yesterday backed up by an early shift today. Thank you to all those who left the lovely birthday wishes. I spent the day yesterday by going to the gym and doing an RPM class with Liz to test out the new shoes, then taking myself out for lunch and then going to work. I was telling all the patients that we were going out for dinner and when they asked where I said “To the radiation therapy tea room – it’s very good I hear!”
I had a Weis bar as a post dinner treat. I got fully back into the swing of the healthy eating yesterday. I think I was being a little too restrictive with myself, as the scale goes down I get a little obsessive and I overanalyse everything that goes into my mouth. When I relax and just go with the flow of the normal clean healthy food, I am OK. So I want to have a few dates, a jarrah hot chocolate and a slim secrets bar for afternoon tea – I will. I don’t want to have stupid eat everything in sight or half a tub of ice cream binges. I want to feel content and happy rather than riddled with guilt when I eat – the guilt encourages the binges.
I was reading “The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle the other day and there is a piece in there about overcoming pain (which can be interpreted in a number of different ways – dicomfort etc) by observing it. Watching yourself and your reactions and experiencing the feelings without responding to them. In a way – being “Disconnected”. I was trying it this afternoon when I was feeling what I normally experience as hunger, but it wasn’t hunger at all, it was just the discomfort I associate with the end of a work day when I know that there is still 2 hours to go and there is nothing I can do about it. So I observed and I was ok. I want to explore the whole concept of not turning to material things to create happiness within myself further but for me at the moment it needs a whole lot more thinking. I got distracted on the Eckhart Tolle book by the history of the English monarchy (which I personally find quite intriguing – but I digress) and I will probably go back to it for a bit nex week (The eckhart tolle book).
I am heading out for a run this afternoon just around the neighbourhood, just want to keep it nice and light and easy!
